Once again my arch nemesis, Dr. Lethargy, is rearing it’s ugly head. Back in January and February I was so full of excitement I could barely control my thoughts long enough to concentrate on two things at one time.
Not so long ago I was so excited about Podcasting, Everquest II, my writing of my novel, my game design (Bloodbath), researching Meso-American civilization, and all of my other assorted hobbies. Now it seems I can barely muster the energy to turn the computer on — I stare at the screen not knowing, or really caring, where I surf. I open up old favorites hoping to elicit a positive response only to look at the screen for a few minutes and then shrug.
What am I to do? I so long for the days where I was designing new rules for Bloodbath all the while surfing on Itunes for music. I can easily remember working all day long, sending myself little emails about new plots, new adventures, and new goals.
I wish I had a magic lantern I could rub and wish for my inspiration to return.
Perhaps I should just open a book and read it, or settle back and watch some TV show. Some small part of me says “yes” but another larger part of me screams, “Who Cares!?!”
So here I sit, thinking about thinking about doing something. I feel like a dried up river bed, staring at the late August sky hoping to see the dark clouds — knowing all too well that a drop of rain will turn into a torrent of excitement.
Where is those darn clouds!